I am slapping this message up the queue because: it what, thank you so much for telling me. Christmas on the beach!!! I don’t deserve this, having once written the worst Yuletide story of all time, but I’ll take it to the bank

I can’t read any Gideon fanfic and I’ve never hurt over anything so bad in all my life. I don’t go looking at anything, even fanart, because I want my soul to be a pure chalice until I finish Alecto the Ninth, a story that’s oceans dumber than any you guys are writing.

As a note in case it wasn’t obvious, I’m so grateful that there’s any fanfiction out there. I’m so delighted. Go with my blessing. I only get hints of fandom when my friends email me shitposts (which are all perfection) or it’s my pals perpetrating it by making Gideon in their dollmaker and then refusing to show me because she ‘looked like Neo from the Matrix’, or whoever the very beautiful lovely person was at London ComicCon who got me to sign an extremely boss piece of art I still want to find online, or the funny fan in the badass cosplay who despite my charmless bewilderment who told me hi from the Discord (I’m just terrible in person and everyone is always so gentle, crackly bone hugs for the Discord). 

The last fannish joy I had was when K.M. Szpara (NOTE TO ANYONE READING THIS: BUY & READ DOCILE THEN WRITE A BUNCH OF FIC I CAN ACTUALLY READ) revealed that he thought the only viable m/m ship was Palamedes/Naberius. My editor was nodding thoughtfully. A beautiful moment.